Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Until I find the words...

I have a lot of things to say, to get off of my chest.  I saw my mother this weekend for the first time in nearly 2 years.  It called into question a lot of the things that I am still trying to work through.  I want to talk about it, but I want to understand it first, if that makes sense.  When I'm ready, I'll talk about it.  I'll share it.  Maybe someone can find some comfort in what I am discovering about myself and the relationship I have/had/trying to build with my mother.  But until then, I cant say much more than this;

I'm sorry mom.  I love you, and I wont leave you.  You're not alone.


I've already told her but maybe I had to tell myself too.

I don't know.

Benticore
Out

1 comment:

Raquita said...

you two are gonna make me cry. The best part about the weekend, was finally meeting the one person who loves Jerry almost as much as I do. I CAN'T wait for you to get here. Anything you can think of that you want me to do while you are gone let me know - you got the e-mail right?