I AM: Trying to align the reality of myself, physically, emotionally, spiritually, with the vision I have in my head. It's hard, ugly, sweaty work.`
I WANT: To finish my book. So badly. I still have other novels I want to write.
I WISH: I could make my wife feel as beautiful as she is. My poetry just aint cutting it.
I HATE: When I feel like I cant do anything right and that everything I touch is doomed to crumble
I MISS: Being debt free...man, 8th grade was great!
I HEAR: Buena Vista Social Club, my boss stalking the isles before our meeting,
I WONDER: What my daughter will think of me when she grows up.
I REGRET: Not doing better in college, despite the distractions. They were really just convenient excuses. Actually, I regret not taking the time to figure out what I REALLY wanted to do. It still eludes me to this day.
I AM NOT: As fearless as my wife about our future, financially, but Im working to make us more prepared.
I DANCE: but not enough with my wife. Stress keeps cutting in.
I SING: whenever I play guitar, which was last night, outside with Cammy. The neighbors gave me a quick review of my talents but shutting their windows.
I CRY: Only in my head.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: Easy to get along with. I need things, physical contact and intimacy, and sometimes I go about getting them in the wrong ways.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: Music.
I WRITE: not nearly enough to finish my book, and not well enough to really like what I read, but enough to want to improve, and enough to keep trying to do more.
I CONFUSE: Everyone around me when I speak my unedited thoughts in a continuous stream.
I NEED: To not lose focus
I SHOULD: Be working.
I START: Asking questions as they appear in my head, even if I know you couldn't possibly know the answer.
I FINISH: Very few things before a new distraction floats past my eyes. Welcome to ADHD
I TAG: Whoever actually reads this blog.